G is for...

G is for Go Go Gadget Survey.
Yeah I know, I am cheating. But I could not get into my original topic to save my life. It was too serious and I feel like fun topics tonight. So a survey is what you get! We could even call it Getting to know Melissa. That starts with a G.

1. What are some things you consider a waste of time and why?
   In life you mean? Being depressed/crying over something. If you are sad then you should find a way to try to be happy. I am not saying I do not get depressed, I just think that being depressed sucks, and it will not change anything for the better.
2. Do you believe there is one particular person (a soulmate, if you will) for everyone?
   No. I believe a person can fall in love with several people in his or her lifetime. To say that there is only one person out in this giant world of ours is ridiculous. I do believe you can love one person with all that you are, but not that they are the only person you could ever love. What if you split up? What if -godess forbid- your significant other passes on? So many things can happen. Humans were not "made" for monogamy in my opinion. (Yes, I realize the irony of my beliefs considering I am married)
3. What feeling do you have the most difficulty expressing?
   Hurt feelings. I normally put it off and tell myself that whatever hurt me was an accident, or that the person did not mean it. Or I tell myself that somehow I must have done something wrong and that is why the person is hurting my feelings.
4. How do you think you would handle yourself in a crisis situation?
   Oh I already know how I would do. When my oldest busted his head open while jumping on the couch, there was blood EVERYWHERE. I about hyperventilated trying to stop the bleeding and trying to figure out what to do because my husband had taken my car without leaving the car seats for the kids and I had no idea how to get to the hospital with the kids without them. Luckily, our housemate was home and he talked me down and came with me to the emergency room. He drove and we ended up putting my youngest back in his infant carrier that we had put in the basement (he had just grown out of it) and then I strapped my oldest in as best as I could beside me while we drove the 3 miles to the hospital. 
5. How would someone be able to tell if you were happy?
   Normally by my face/voice. If I am happy, I am bubbly by nature. 
6. Are you usually an organized person? Why or why not?
   It depends on what area of life we are talking about. I feel like my house and bills are very organized. I have folders for everything, I label everything, I have binders for important things and my house is almost always spotless. I think this has less to be with being organized and more to do with me being a complete crazy person when it comes to messiness. I grew up in a very cluttered house and I never ever want to be in that situation and just be happy with a pathway through the house.
7. Do you make your bed every day?
   I do. However normally the kids and I nap all together in my bed, and I normally do not make it up after they wake up. 
8. Does any particular season make you happier than others? Why?
   Spring. I absolutely love it because as cliche as it sounds, I love the smell of wet grass in the morning. The smell after I mow the lawn is amazing. I just love grass and dirt and warmness. No snow to be seen and the sun shining every day without being too overbearingly hot? My idea of perfection.
9. Do you like to exaggerate things?
   Yes. My favorite expression is when I am talking to the Monster, I tell him "you have a million and twelve toys, why are you whining about not being able to find that exact toy?" Or "You have been standing in that fridge for a million and twelve years, close it, decide what you want and then go back or ask me to get it."
10. Can you adapt to change easily? Examples?
    Yes and no. Yes because I have to adapt to changes moving around as much as I have. I spent my childhood moving from state to state. Florida, Virginia, Wisconsin, Texas, Iowa, North Dakota. Each time I had to make new friends, learn new cities, etc etc etc. No because I am getting worse at it. I have a total of three people up here in this state that I see regularly. I have just turned into a little bit of an antisocial hermit. I prefer to spend my time at home with the kids instead of socializing out in the world.
11. How often do you cry? What can bring you to tears?
    I am not sure how often I cry, I do not document it, but when I cry it is normally about one of two things. Either from the loss of my brother, or because I have gotten frustrated during a talk with my husband.
12. Would you describe yourself as a peace keeper or a troublemaker?
    Peacekeeper. I often forget to stand up for myself because I am trying to keep the peace. I like people to be happy and I will always try to help if I can. 
13. Do you give money to homeless people?
    No. I want to, but if I did, I would run out of money pretty fast around here. I did recently break down and get a homeless man a case of bottled water because he was outside in extremely hot weather with his dog. My heart about broke. 
14. In what circumstances do you feel most at peace?
    When my children are playing nicely together and I can curl up with a good book. I like to read about anything and everything. I will even read wikipedia articles for fun. 
15. Do you enjoy giving and receiving hugs?
    Of course! Hugs make me very happy, both giving them and receiving them. I have held myself back in recent years however because someone clued me in that not everyone likes their personal space invaded.
16. Do you believe in luck, and if so do you consider yourself lucky?
    I am actually not sure if I believe in "luck" per say. 
17. What do you see as your biggest flaw? Are you trying to "fix" it?
    My insecurities. I act very confident, but at then end of the day, I can think of at least three negative things about myself for every positive thing. I am working on loving myself more, and being more happy with myself.
18. Do you feel everyone is worthy of love?
    No. If you abuse someone elses love then I do not believe you are worthy of love. 
19. What are you most disappointed with in life?
    That there are so many negative people out there who just try to hurt everyone they know. I do not mind negativity sometimes but for someone to spend most of their day everyday finding ways to put someone else down, disappoints me.
20. Do you consider yourself to be a competitive person?
    Yes. Unless I am competing against a cocky SOB. If I win, I try to win gracefully and not throw it in the other persons face, unlike some people I know.
21. On what topics do you feel qualified to give advice?
    Honestly not many. Any advice I give is my opinion, and if I say it worked for me, that means it worked for me. It may not work for you. However if you come to me with a problem, I will usually be more than happy to throw myself into research to see if I can find some answers for you and give you that info and advice based off of that.
22. How long can you be alone before you feel lonely?
    Quite a long time actually. I do not find the two to be the same thing. I like to be alone, but I do not like to be lonely if that makes sense.
23. Are you like a member of your family? How so?
    I look exactly like my mother. I act more like my father however.
24. Are you punctual, or do you tend to run late?
    I try to be early wherever I go, but sometimes I end up running late if the kids or I are having a bad day.
25. Do you enjoy housework? What is the one chore you hate with a passion?
    I do not enjoy it, but I do enjoy having a clean house. I do it more because I can not stand to see something out of place. I refer to myself as OCD at times, and others will agree with me. The chore I hate the most is folding/hanging up laundry. I do not mind washing/drying it, but when it comes time to put it up, I normally put it off as long as possible.
26. Do you enjoy drinking alcohol to relax?
    Not really. I do not like to be out of control, so I only drink like once every 3 months or so. 
27. What is your number one fear?
    That I am not enough. 
28. Do you have a favorite song?
    Scars, by Papa Roach. I often have favorite songs of the week or such, but I always come back to this one. It sits with me well and I feel I understand it perfectly.
29. How do you feel about drugs?
    I am not a fan. But, as I said already, I am a control freak, so any type of mind altering habit is not for me.
30. Are you wearing jewelry?
    No. I do not like jewelry. (I know, what? *gasp* a woman who does not enjoy jewelry?) Seriously, my husband got me a really pretty diamond necklace and a steam mop for Christmas. He complains often that I use the steam mop every day (and all of the super neat attachments that go with it because it is AWESOME!) and that I never wear the necklace. Jewelry bothers me. I do not like things around my neck, I do not like earrings and I hardly wear rings. That even goes for my wedding ring. In fact right now, it is in my dresser instead of on my finger. Jewelry gets caught on things and ends up being in the way most the time in my experience.
31. What annoys you most when grocery shopping?
    When people leave their cart in the parking lot. I always take my cart back to the cart return, or sometimes back into the store. I also take any other carts that happen to be near my car back as well. It drives me completely bonkers.
32. Are you the youngest in your family?
    Absolutely not, I am the oldest. I will be turning 24 in three weeks and my youngest brother just turned 4 yesterday.
33. Do you consider yourself a mature or immature person?
    Mature most the time. I know how to have fun and be immature, but mostly once I became a mother I did some growing up. You have to when you are the only one your child can depend on.
34. Do you wear your heart on your sleeve?
    Sometimes yes. I hide hurt feelings and anger as best as I can, but I am told I am a horrible liar. Sometimes it is a pain in the butt, but I would rather be a terrible liar than an accomplished liar.
35. What is something you would like to change about yourself?
    As I said before, my insecurities. I am working to believe in myself more. It is way easier said than done, but I am trying. 

There you go :) Any other questions you have?