B is for....

Breastfeeding! Yes, there will be pictures to accompany this, so if you are uncomfortable with boobies being used for what they were intended for (feeding babies) then take it somewhere else buddy!

First, breastfeeding can be done several ways, so you may see no boob, or you might see the whole show.

There are the women who do it and you would know they were breastfeeding no matter how far away you are.

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 Then there are women who do it so discreetly that you would have to be on top of her to know that she was breastfeeding.

Stolen picture alert!

There are women who breastfeed infants all the way until school age, sometimes both at the same time!

I am pretty good at googling nifty pictures

But no matter what the woman's style/choices when it comes to how she breastfeeds or how long, it is a beautiful thing.

Beautiful.

Now that we are past all the pictures and the ones who would be uncomfortable and bashed this topic have most likely left, let us get down to business. I firmly believe breast is best. I say this as someone who has both formula fed and breastfed her children. If possible to give your child breast milk why not do it? You would be helping your child in so many ways!!

• Breastfeeding can help your uterus shrink back to normal faster than if you did not breastfeed. 
• Breast milk is free! It is ALWAYS with you, and you never have to wash out bottles. Free and no dishes? Can it get better? Yes. Yes it can.
• It can help your babies immune system. 
• It is custom made for your baby. 
• Did you know that since the flavor of your breast milk changes according to what you eat, your child will be accustomed to new changes in his diet. So when it comes to introducing some solids, baby will be more likely to accept it faster.
• Selfish reason to breastfeed (and yes, it is completely fine to be selfish in this case) it burns 500 calories a day. Do you know how many oreos that is? Helllooooo guilt free chocolate!!
• Baby poop...we all have to deal with it, BUT breastfed babies poop does not smell quite as bad as formula poop.
  
  
  I am not a doctor, and I do not know everything about breastfeeding. There are so many more benefits I have not mentioned but I do not want to be here all day, and I am sure you do not want to read an entire book on a blog post :) I do know it comes easy for some. For others (myself included) it was hard at times, exhausting, painful, and took a lot of work to get comfortable with. The first week I cried almost every time I tried. I could not get the position right, I could not get him to latch on right away, my boobs hurt, my nipples cracked, I was stressed, the list goes on and on. But I got through it. I did not breastfeed nearly as long as some, and I regret it now, but I breastfed for a good while, and that to me deserves a pat on the back. If you are wanting to breastfeed and are having trouble, it is normal. Do not beat yourself up for it. Do not give up. Reach out for help! There are veteran breast-feeders, and they will do their best to help you.

A is for........

AC/DC, Aerosmith, Alice Cooper, Alice in Chains and Autograph. What do they have in common? If you can not answer that question without cheating, I do not know if I want you reading my blog. I am going to have to ask you to leave now and leave the grownups to their work.

They are all bands popular in the 80s. AMAZING bands, who made amazing music, back when music was actually good. Do you think that crap on the radio today is good? It is catchy, sure. But no where near great like it used to be. I will give you an example. Lyrics from one of the most popular singers today, Justin Bieber: "If I was your boyfriend, I'd never let you go, I can take you places you ain't never been before. Baby take a chance or you'll never ever ever know. I got money in my hands that I'd really like to blow. Swag swag swag on you. Chillin by the fire while we eatin' fondue. I dunno about me but I know about you. So say hello to falsetto in three two swag." And now a lyric from ACDC: "She was a fast machine, she kept her motor clean. She was the best damn woman that I ever seen. She had the sightless eyes, telling me no lies. Knockin me out with those American thighs. Takin more than her share, had me fighting for air, she told me to come but I was already there."

Can you see the difference? Go listen to them on youtube, if you still like JB better, there is no hope for you. There are several other popular bands from the 80s such as Poison, Pink Floyd, Kiss, Motley Crue, U2, INXS and the list of amazing artists go on and on. Do not get me wrong, there are a few songs from today that are good. But in my opinion, the 80's produced way better music than artists today ever will. Music used to mean something. These days people seem to latch on to songs about money, making it "rain" on "hoes/hos" or getting away with cheating on several people. Music did not include "dancing" -read dry humping- around in next to nothing. For that reason, I am nostalgic and angry. You are not living until you are rocking out to an 80's song in your living room.

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My goal for this blog is to get all my thoughts and memories out of my head. I wish pensieves really existed, this would be so much easier. I have been using my personal facebook page but I feel like I am met with too much judgement there. I also do not want to share everything with people I have not seen or talked to in years and their mother. It is very hard to put a persons life on paper, but I will do my best to sum up mine. I am an all over the place kind of writer. I do not sit down and think out what I want it to look like, how to format it and all that jazz. I write what pops into my head. Sometimes I am funny, sometimes I am weird, other times I am depressing and angry. I do my best to live a positive life, I like being happy. I was raised a military brat. I have two boys who mean the world to me, a husband who is the best husband in the entirety of husbands. He is in the Air Force so we are stuck in North Dakota. I hate the place, but he makes it easier, as does the few friends I have. I have three friends I see up here. That may tell you how antisocial I can be! Which is silly because I love talking and participating in game nights with people. I lose my temper easily and lash out with yelling. I yell too much, I am very aware of it. I am OCD when it comes to cleaning my house and building things, so much so that my four year old is picking up on it and showing signs of it too.
I have a four year old and a two year old that I love with my whole heart and I like them most days :) I had my tubes tied over a year ago and have no regrets whatsoever. Two children is more than enough for me. I would not mind having a third child, but no way I would go through with another pregnancy. My pregnancies were not bad/traumatic, I just do not enjoy being pregnant. My husband and I will be looking into fostering/adopting a child when the kids get to be about 10 and 12. It is something I have always wanted to do. I was born in 89, so now you know my age. I have a serious hatred of sequins. They bother me on so many levels. I love eating junk food. I think I am a wonderful mother but have days where I fear I am too harsh on them, and other days when I feel as though they are getting to be spoiled monsters. I am paranoid about anything and everything when it comes to them.
My monster is my four year old. He is sweet as heck, but he loved growling when he was a baby so I call him monster sometimes. He loves playing with friends, coloring, writing, singing, dancing, playing with cars and devouring carrots faster than Bugs Bunny himself could. My munchkin is my two year old. He is a tiny bit small for his age, and his brother towers over him so we started referring to him as munchkin. He is delayed in his developments and we are in the process of getting a diagnosis of Autism. It can take months, even years to get an official diagnosis. The doctors are 98% positive that he will be diagnosed with ease come April. Until we have an official diagnosis, we are not discussing it with many people. Too much to explain at this point while we ourselves still have so many questions. He enjoys spinning in circles, playing inside his megablock castle, watching his favorite shows and cuddling with mommy and daddy. He is non verbal at this point, but we have hope he will start talking eventually.
I like to read, watch Disney movies, hike (when there is a place to hike) sleeping and baking. I do not enjoy cooking, listening to little noises such as pens tapping, whistling or anything repetitive.