Most everyone who knows me, knows I try to be positive as much as possible.
That being said, I miss my husband a lot. I got an amazing call tonight from him. He got to spend the day with our niece and nephew. I finally get to meet them when we go out there in two weeks. I am nervous as hell. You see my nephew is a month younger than my Munchkin. They look so much alike, it is kinda crazy.
I try my very very hardest not to compare him to other children, I really do. It was sound advice given to me by a close friends mother and I trust her. It was the very first thing she told me when she heard about the Munchkins MCHAT results after his doctor gave it to him. But I am already starting to in my head. My nephew can talk. He can carry on a conversation. He not only speaks English, he speaks German as well. He met my husband for the first time and wanted him to pick him up within five minutes. He got excited about a passing car and yelled out its color.
At this point, I realized what I was doing, and I stopped to remind me of the stuff the Munchkin CAN do. But it is still hard, and I know seeing him in person is going to be even more trying for me. I am just jealous, and it is a stupid emotion. I am so jealous that I do not get to hear my children plotting to do something evil together, or want to make tents with each other and tell each other secrets. I am jealous that I do not get to hear my youngest say hi momma. I need to fight this jealousy monster off, but I am not winning that battle at the moment.
I try my very very hardest not to compare him to other children, I really do. It was sound advice given to me by a close friends mother and I trust her. It was the very first thing she told me when she heard about the Munchkins MCHAT results after his doctor gave it to him. But I am already starting to in my head. My nephew can talk. He can carry on a conversation. He not only speaks English, he speaks German as well. He met my husband for the first time and wanted him to pick him up within five minutes. He got excited about a passing car and yelled out its color.
At this point, I realized what I was doing, and I stopped to remind me of the stuff the Munchkin CAN do. But it is still hard, and I know seeing him in person is going to be even more trying for me. I am just jealous, and it is a stupid emotion. I am so jealous that I do not get to hear my children plotting to do something evil together, or want to make tents with each other and tell each other secrets. I am jealous that I do not get to hear my youngest say hi momma. I need to fight this jealousy monster off, but I am not winning that battle at the moment.
