D is for...

D is for Dreams

Not the kind you have while you sleep though. They say that a dream is a wish your heart makes, but I am fairly certain that, even in the deepest darkest place in my heart, I do not want the weeping Angels to come after me. So we are just going to go ahead and tell those mice to shove their theory and stick to making Cinderella pretty dresses and singing ridiculous lies. 

This post is going to be about dreams I aspire to achieve. Everyone has a dream they are working toward, I do not care who you are. There is something out there that you want and are making your way closer to. Some of them I am going to have to work really hard at, some that will sound more like goals, but all things I would like to achieve. If you asked me when I was 12 what I dreamed of being, I would have told you rock star. At 17, I wanted to be a flight attendant. At 18 I was back to rock star! At 19 however, my dreams changed drastically. You see that is when I had my monster. When I found out I was pregnant, I wanted so much more. I wanted to go back and change all of my previous dreams and get my life better on track. Since I did not have a DeLorean, I was kind of screwed on that aspect. So instead I focused on bettering myself. I had to grow up because I admit, I was an immature person. I had to try and figure out what to do with my toxic relationship with my then boyfriend. He made that easy though and split because he could not handle being a father. Then my dreams became about supporting my son as best I could, being the best mom I could possibly be and also try to be the best in the daddy role as a woman can be. So I quit my job and got a better one that allowed me to support myself and him without any help from his biological father, not that he offered. I thought any real relationship was out of the question, I mean, who really sees a single mom and says "score! Totally want to be with her for the rest of my life, diaper changes are totally my thing!" Luckily however, my prince charming came along. He has a way about him, most people think he is a jerk and uncaring. I find him to be witty, have a twisted sense of humor and wonderful. He can be a jerk to others, but when it counts, he is the best man I know. You may think I am required to say that since we are married and you may think that he reads this, but he does not read this and I truly believe it. 

I am now going to possibly bore you by telling you about how my husband and I came to be. You see, we had worked together in high school, he actually trained me. Then I moved on to a better paying job after graduation, and he graduated the following year and joined the Air Force. Around July 2009, we started talking again because he had found my phone number. He came back to visit me that month and we went on a date. I was under the impression it was a date, but when we got to the restaurant, my mother, sister and grandma were all there eating. BIG coincidence, but when you live in a small town, you get used to it. He thought I had planned it as a way to tell him I was not interested without actually coming out and saying it. After that, he had to go back to ND and we maintained contact. He came back to visit me again on Thanksgiving. By that time it was completely obvious we had chemistry. We started talking on the phone every night and chatting online throughout the day. By the time he made it back to Iowa in January, I was head over heels. We started officially dating that month, and he started coming down twice a month. We got married in May of 2010. He loves the monster like his own, he is actually going to adopt him as soon as my ex signs his rights over, after we track him down. I was not even trying to look for a relationship with him in the beginning because I did not want to ruin a friendship, but we turned out great. So as you can see, that dream of having a father figure for my son was fulfilled but I can not take credit for it. Had my husband not been the amazing man he is, this would not have happened. I thank the stars every day for him.

Now my dreams have changed yet again. I still want to be the best mom ever of course, but now I also want to be a social worker to help children. I want to be that trophy wife that only exist in stepford, I want to hike to the top of a mountain, I want to read 1,000,000 books. I want to go on vacation with just my husband and myself. I want to take the kids across Europe once they get to middle school or high school. I want to become a great cook start cooking more. I want to adopt a little girl who otherwise would not have been adopted because no one likes to adopt children over the age of six. So many things that I want to do, I just have to get started first. Some I have already started working towards, some I am putting off until the timing is better for our family. Dreams take work, and I plan on working hard to make mine come true. What dream are you working towards? 

Live your dreams <3